Thankful

Wow, It has been such a long time since I've blogged. A lot of things have happened. This year has been one crazy ride. One huge thing that happened to me earlier this year that I've never thought that it would happen to ME. It was hard to deal with it, especially a lone without my fam. But I had my close and true friends who stood by my side, and believe in me with all their might. And as I sit here in my living room, I can't help but be Thankful that God blessed me with my love ones in my life. I'm listening to Just Believe by Bridget Hermano, and this song brings so much memory. It made my realize, I've came a long way from where I was 4 years ago. And thinking about it now, how i didn't think I would make it, thinking about it now, God is really good. It was because of him that I've decided to changed my ways and myself. Without him, I wouldnt be where I am and the person I am today. I know I've been through so much crazy things in the past, from betrayals, to heartbreaks, to unfair moment, to many mistakes and wrong decisions, God stayed faithful, He didn't give up on me, instead he stayed by my side, directed my life, and most importantly he cared for me. so as I sit here this afternoon, I can't help, but feel Soo THANKFUL.

Just Believe by Bridget Hermano
Drifting away to find a peice of my mind
too fast I fall I can't stop-
I'm losing control
I need a hand to hold
but noones around
I need a miracle
somehow to be found

This is a first
I've never opened my heart
but I'm willing to learn
I willing to start

Breaking my walls down
Figure myself out
Now is the time
to let it all go
There is still hope for me
I know that I will be
I'll be okay if I trust
I'll be okay if I just believe

Time flows it goes to a place
I cannot go back
regrets, forgetfulness,
memories of the past, yeah
It can't control me now
everything is long gone
And I refuse to let it hold me down

This is a first
I need to surrender my heart
So I'm willing to learn
I'm ready to start

Breaking my walls down
Figure myself out
now is the time
to let it all go
There is still hope for me
I know that I will be
I'll be okay if I trust
I'll be okay if I just believe

Believe, Believe yeah

It's been a while since I've talked to You
And Lord I know
You have seen everything I've been going through yeah.
I'm down on my knees, I'm saying please.
I need you to open my eyes,
my eyes, my eyes, my eyes.

You broke my walls down
You helped me figure out
You helped me Lord to let it all go
You've given hope to me
I know that I will be
I'll be okay cus I trust
I'll be okay cus I trust, in You
trust in You
trust in You yeah

Good bye 2009, you meant a lot to me.

Sometimes, you don’t always accomplish your new year’s resolution. It doesn’t mean you fail. It doesn’t mean you can’t reach it. It just means you’re close to getting it. It just means to not give up, and keep pushing forward. Although, you don’t always get what you what because things don’t always happen the way you hope it would, it doesn’t mean God has left you or betrayed you. Because the truth is, everything happens in God’s timing and only his perfect timing. It just means to keep on trusting him. To not depend on your own understanding, but trust him with all your heart. God’s plan is best than the best plan you came up with yourself.
The truth is I’ve learned a lot about myself. I’ve also accomplished many things. It just proves that all things are possible through Christ who strengthens me. I’m just really thankful for everything God has given me. From my accomplishment in school, from guiding me and never leaving me, to the many blessings he has given me. Good bye 2009, It has been a blessed year.:)

Although I don't know why this happened to us, It wasn't suppose to be this way, but I still look at God and know this is who you are, and you have not changed, God is God. I look at him and it takes over the things in me that makes me feel shattered.

sowing & reaping

"Every lesson is a widening & deepening of consciousness. It is a stretching of the mind beyond its conceptual limits & a stretching of the heart beyond its emotional boundaries. It is a bringing of unconscious material into consciousness, a healing of past wounds, & a discovery of new faith & trust."